Sometimes

it's just hard to know that you feel something for somebody that might not feel it back for you. Is this what a crush truly is? Do you ever think it would be better if we all could just have arranged marriages and skip all of this mumbo jumbo? But then I hear that these feelings are the best when you meet someone...that they remind you that you're still alive. They have truly reminded me that I'm alive but man...talk about a spin cycle of hope, pain, sadness, and happiness going on in my stomach. But it's all good...I'm finding that it's been a lot easier to just go with the flow...and not allow myself to get my hopes up. In fact, I'm pretty guarded and am almost prepared for anything. I know that doesn't sound good..but those who know me understand what I've been through...I would have to be an idiot not to be somewhat guarded. Anyways, just had to get all of this off my chest. I hope everyone is doing well!

Am I right side up or upside down?

Not having air conditioning totally sucks ass. It's not the whole house..but it happens to be my room, Gavin's room, basically the front side of the house. So I have been sleeping in the den on the couch and my back hurts so bad right now that I'm absolutely MISERABLE. So basically this is a bitching blog...I'm bitchy..lol. Excluding Theresa coming over yesterday..this weekend has pretty much sucked. My mom and dad have been fighting ALL weekend...Karen has pissed Melanie off, and let me mention again that I'm freaking HOT and can barely walk. Things are just kisses and roses over here. Ok, enough of that...go about your day..lol. Thank you.